2. An Ending (Un-Ending)

The wind blew like it knew where I was going
And the sun set as I neared a horizon
But it wouldn’t stop moving, an ending unending
I’m scared of what’s beyond that ocean
I synchronized my steps with the breathing
Of my lungs stretching out for air
And I’m getting tired of these traits I’ve acquired
Sometimes I wish I didn’t have to compare
And the wheels on my bike just keep spinning
And the houses I pass just keep passing
And I’ve been here a hundred times but I want to come again
I want to leave but I still want my friends

The one’s who are older aren’t even sad that it’s over
I guess it always just ends up that way

When the brakes go into action
The excitement dies off
Like the end of a rainstorm
When it’s just getting good
Like the end of a friendship
When it’s just getting good
Like the end of an ending
A horizon unending
That point where everything stops

3. Ell-ih-juh-bill-itty

Maybe something I could count on, count on
Maybe someday I could count on you

All, all of these feelings that I crave
All these fixated faces on me
Look what I’ve got
It’s nothing I could count on
I’m a waste of a waste of a waste
What’s living inside me?
The stuff you scrape off the bottom of your shoes
(Oh, is it something I could count on?)
I’m a waste of waste of a waste
What’s living inside me?
All, all of these feelings that I crave

Blue skies contrast to black and white
A black light skyline, a black light skyline
Fight, fight, fight, fight, fight the sky
Me on the couch and you on the other
Turn to pictures
Motion pictures
Touch screen, action figures
Figures

What if you could count on me?
Fight, fight, fight, fight, fight the sky
What if you could count on me?
All, all of these feelings that I crave
Maybe something I could count on, count on
Maybe someday I could count on you
All these fucking feelings I crave
I orchestrated planes above me

4. Crispus Attix Anthem

Here’s your certificate of some sort of completion
You’ve lost all you’ve anticipated
Succeeded and succession
From one wrong to regression
A list you’ve made and done away with
Another face, you’ve learned to face it
A wall you can’t communicate with
And I am just a bother
Bringing sore and sour truth to your ticket booth
A sign that says “I’m pathetic”
A blip in your illuminated satellite security picture
All you need is this
Help that you’re bound to abuse
Brian is in the hospital he paid for ears he didn’t use
Why our muted mouths are still attended
Pick and choosing your perception
Maybe you’re afraid that you’ll regret it
You placed a mask with a painted frown on yourself
And you don’t need this
I have here a stubborn hand
It’s hard to hold up so long
I have a question
Why is everything so hard?

5. Less Than Two

I’m trying to balance work and school and friends and everything else I can
On this fucking
scale It’s not working out too well
Life’s a big fat shitty sitcom show

I thought physics said when I move, you move with me
I thought calculus told me you were my only Y coordinate
Oh, but I’m unfortunate
2 years is a long time to wait, but I’m sorry I’ve the patience
And pursued persistence

And your necklace is still on my night stand and sometimes I wear it I pretend you are near me
Whispering softly
“I’ll be here forever, I’m so afraid of losing you”
Well you lost me

I’m trying to fake whatever else I can and everything else I can’t
Without getting physical
It’s not working out too well
This is one of the worst episodes

I know Sam had said when I move, you’re unmoving
But I thought she was joking, I hope she’s joking
About it
Oh, but how can I doubt her?
2 years is a long time to wait, but I’m sorry I’m pathetic
Maybe it’s the weather
Or maybe the climate

And your necklace is still on my night stand and sometimes I wear it
To pretend you are near me
Whispering softly
Saying “I’ll be here forever, I’m so afraid of losing you”
And I sing “I’ll be here forever, I’m so afraid of losing you”
Please come find me

6. Above and Below Sea Level

A bunch of random numbers and letters
Trying to fix me
WD-40
And it’ll take more than time to fix the sky
Cause stars are scars and I’m no doctor
Stars are scars
Stars are scars
I’ll wrap my guitar chord around your heart
I’ll write you a love song

Where did you bury this romance?
Because I don’t know where my red fern’s growing
And I’m dying to hold your hand
So don’t let me end up two yards down
Next to all my second chances
Scars are Stars

7. Sunshine State

We want sun but we get rain
‘Till disappointment fills our veins

8. Some Summer

Some summer
Wake up early and work away
Some things never change
Some nothing everyday
The same sun that comes up September
The same faces I’ll never remember
I’m becoming what I’ve always wanted
To spit on

Figure tomorrow I will show happiness
In the same repetitive chorus that advises to get over this
I will learn I will never learn a single solitary thing
Until everything fixes itself for me
And by then I won’t have to learn
A single solitary thing
Until everything fixes itself for me

These are the same faces I can’t remember
I will never learn a single solitary thing
Until everything fixes itself for me
And by then I won’t have to learn
A single solitary thing
Until everything fixes itself for me
I will learn I will never learn anything oh anything

9. New Jersey Smokestacks

New Jersey smokestacks
Epitome Pollution is pretty
Five Silent Miles in my ears
And I’m realizing
I’m pretending I’m not capable of loving anything anywhere anytime any who any who anyhow
Crispus Attix In a hospital bed
After everything your lover
She came to save you
I thought the British killed you

New Jersey smokestacks
Pollution is pretty
I loved you
You fucked him
A week earlier I could have saved you
I know the British killed you

10. Yellow Orange Red

I waited too long
Now I’m the skeletal blueprint of an oak tree
And all of my leaves below me
Spells out “too late” In a rainbow array

Forget me
Second hand man and I always will be
You won’t see me
All of my leaves below me

But now I read between the lines and
I won’t wait ‘till autumn next time

My favorite season
Coming close to the end of its eve
I wish I was an evergreen
Forever green
But my perennial state stays In the worst of ways

But now I read between the lines and
I won’t wait ‘till autumn next time

You were some sunset I saw in a picture once
Once summer came you held its hand
And you ran and you ran